my first encounter

i was asleep
in the middle of nowhere
but i'm not alone
i'm was never alone

but then, i felt more than alone
with no one to have
no one one beside me
and i felt helpless
can't able to move
can't run
can't lift my spirit somewhere
i was stucked
in the middle of nowhere

i tried to reach
for someone who was beside me
but i can't
i felt she was a million miles away
or she was just there
so near
and i was the one who was so afar

i felt her reaching out
yet i refused
i continued my way
i kept myself distant
i was in my other self
the half crazy ant

i don't wanna talk
i just stared somewhere
outside that small world
where i am

i made a world for myself
just me and my own
no one, just me

i know she tried
and i thought that wasn't enough
still, i refused the offer
i stayed in my own little world
just myself, and my own

but i regreted it
those things that i did to her
i regret it still
and forever

i wanna say i'm sorry
for the things this half crazy ant did
i'm sorry
i'm sorry

for still living in this half crazy world that
i made for this half crazy ant